Are the Old Days Better? | Thursday, June 30, 2005
I have been reflecting within myself and found to my great disappointment and sadness that I am no longer the person I once was. Now, if I changed for the better, of course I would be glad but I don't think I have changed for the better.
In the past, I was a very zealous person for Christ. I would attend every prayer meeting, every Christian conference, every cellgroup meeting, every sunday services and would sing very loudly of every Christian song until I lost my voice and even though my pitch was off and low key that would probably affect my Christian brother and sister around me but I couldn't care less for I love God and longed to worship Him with all of my heart, soul and strength. However, with a few years after my national service, I found my heart cold and probably only a flicker of flame burning for Christ. I found myself not really passionate for God, and was very hesitant to go to church, cellgroup and even Christian conferences. When the worship leader sing new Christian songs, I felt like I was singing just for the sake of singing and even reading the Bible no longer brought me any joy. I can't help but wonder where my passion has gone? My zeal for God, where had it disappear?
I couldn't help but comparing the old days and the present days and definitely I would say that the old days are better than the present. It is simply because at that time, I could enjoy the presence of God without struggling and know within my heart of hearts that God was pleased with me but now, I find myself critical of my friends, and cynical over my church leadership, sermons and worse of all, I have nutured a critical and cynical spirit. I was no longer the man after God's own heart and I was very sad. I told my friends and they said that this is life and to get over it but I am not satisfied. I want to be the man after God's own heart until the day I die and I want to be sensitive to His presence and to the people's needs. Easy to say and thought about but hard to live.
Therefore, when I heard the old songs in my growing up years now, they created in my heart a sense of what God has done in my life and is still doing now albeit I sinned against Him and broke His heart but one thing is still true that He loves me even until now and He is still willing to die for my sins just for me to love Him back and reconcile myself to Him. This is true and He is saying this to you. I like this part about the communion and that is: This is His Body broken for me and This is His Blood Shed for me. Take it and eat and do this in remembrance of me.
In the same way, This is His body broken for you and this is His blood shed for You. Would you partake it and do it in remembrance of Him? Behold, He is still standing at your door and knock and awaits you to accept Him as Your personal God and Savior.
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